What Did You Say?
What… What?
Where Are My Pills?

I forgot to take my morning pills. I need to drink warm water to swallow my medicine. Warm, hot water is best. I should add lemon for a little taste, and welcome vitamin C into my system. My fingers are in a trigger-bent like position. My arthritis thumbs are swollen. I forgot I had a physical therapy session yesterday/thumb exercise(s).

I have other difficulties, too, with my right knee, my lower back, and neck. All demands therapies I do not have time for. Old age. Regarding my hands, my range of motion is off, making simpler tasks done with my hands difficult. My right knee becomes stiff, making it impossible to run. Why? I cannot even run to save my life. My glasses, where are my glasses? I must be cautious, careful, and guarded when I get up, bend down, bend over, or carry anything. The weight must be evenly distributed, divided on both sides of my body, left, and right sides. If I am in an unfamiliar location, I get lost, disoriented, and panicky.

On another note, in my building sometimes I meet a neighbor and forget his or her name. After all, I really do not know my neighbors. I see them in the hallway occasionally, about five times a year. We are civil, but I cannot recall their names. One fault I have is I sometimes walk away from one task, and seek another, different, and new project without completing the original task. I will get to it later.

Anxiety causes me to become disoriented, unsettled, uneasy, and disturbed. What shall I wear today? Where is my green plaid shirt? Which pants should wear? Did I wash my face? I must brush my teeth. What am I doing today? Is it necessary? It is cold outside. It is warm, comfortable, and cozy inside. I have an important doctor’s appointment. I cannot cancel this appointment. All these different doctor’s appointments! Enough already. I must keep this doctor’s appointment.